I almost shut down my blog a few weeks ago.
Before I made a ridiculously rash decision though, I contacted a friend. I really needed some perspective on how I was feeling and luckily she knew exactly what to say (and more)! For quite a few months now, Jill and I have been forming quite the friendship. We email fairly often and I know I can count on her to always make me feel better. And she came through again!
I am not shutting down my blog.
But I am putting the whole thing out there so you all know why I would even consider such a thing. And after I do, I’ll either be loved or vilified. At the end of the day, I only need people in my life who need me in theirs!
A little while back, I received an email (I am nice enough not to say names) from a blogger that was rather harsh. This struck me as odd for a few reasons: 1- I do not read this persons blog. 2- To my knowledge they did not read my blog. 3- I did nothing specifically to this person to precipitate this email.
Basically, the email was in reference to a comment I had left on another blogger’s blog. It was a random comment, wherein I was playing along with what seemed like a fun post. It is true that most of the people commenting were ones I do not commonly converse with, but the blog itself was one I had been reading/commenting for quite a while. It appears that I had missed the memo that some posts were to be commented on by only the “inner circle” of bloggers. Hmmm…maybe a disclaimer would have helped! Apparently, this person wanted to put me in my place and inform me that I am not part of the elite inner circle and that commenting on people’s blog posts that I don’t know about won’t get me in either. (They of course did not use the term “elite inner circle” but it was implied that some people are “better” than others.)
You might be shaking your head thinking WTF. I guessed that, because that was my exact same reaction. Honestly, I was stunned.
First of all- I do not wish to be a part of the Elite Blogging Circle. You all know who you are. You are the ones that started where we all started…but as you got bigger, you decided some people weren’t worth your time even if they were your “friends” beforehand. You are the ones with 500+ followers- and you are so uber focused on that number. You are the ones who never come around to blogs like mine unless there is a fun give-a-way or exchange. You are the ones that only comment certain people. And as it turns out, through emailing with a few people, I am learning that I am not the only one who has been the brunt of a mean email via the “elite” bloggers.
Second of all- I am pretty sure that if others knew who this person was (or who the others were that I have heard about), they would either be totally shocked or not shocked at all…depending of course in what circle they roll in.
At any rate, that email caused me to reassess quite a bit. I was trying to keep up with over 100 blogs on my reader. Ridiculous. I don’t have that much time on my hands. But I was trying to keep up- to keep up with blogs I shouldn’t even have been bothering with in the first place. Yeah, that had to stop. Even more ridiculous is that of the blogs I have stopped reading, I doubt half or more even realize. And the most ridiculous of all, is that I almost let this idiot (yeah, I am sure you are reading…you ARE an idiot) keep me from blogging. You almost won. But that isn’t me. You don’t get to win. I will not let you, or anyone, control me. This blog is staying whether I have three readers or three hundred readers.
The only other thing I will say about this…is that I appreciate my loyal readers. Some of you have been with me from the very beginning. And I hope you are for a long time because I do not plan to go anywhere!