Day 3- Something you have to forgive yourself for.
The concept of living a life with no regrets is great in theory, but it’s also unrealistic. I do have regrets. And instead of pretending they don’t exist, I have learned to use them as tools to live better.
It has taken some time, but I realize now that I have to forgive myself most for not providing myself with a traditional college experience. I went to community college and did well. But it just wasn’t for me. Then I went to hair school. I excelled and truly did love it- but hated being in the salon environment. After a few years, I went back to school. Dean’s list every semester, awards for excellence and accepted in the Dual Program to work on my Masters while still taking classes for my Bachelors. Then it came crashing down. I’m three credits shy of my degree, that I don’t even know if I will ever use, and in debt to a University that has made every step of my path a difficult one. It is hard not to think about how it all would have turned out if I had just done it the “normal” way. But I didn’t- I am here. And I have to be present here.
I have to get past the mistakes I made when I was young that still reverberate through my life’s path. I need to remember that I would not have learned the lessons I did or had every experience that has put me where I am now, if it wasn’t for decisions that were once mistakes.
My mistakes are a part of who I am. I am beginning to realize that regrets aren’t necessarily a bad thing. My mistakes have taught me priceless lessons I wouldn’t have otherwise learned and have given me an idea of who I do and/or do not want to be.
Mistakes are a part of life. Regrets happen. Forgiveness is growth.